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i must be pranking MYSELF. 

or i cud be just plain stupid.

i kinda knew from the start that it was a bad idea to even start liking him. like seriously, to even consider a relationship with him is exactly like asking my dad to think of becoming a world renown rockstar. He might just give me the do-u-think-i-m-stupid look and carry on with watever he was previously doing. 

now, i've done the one thing i told myself to not do. 

prepare to scream/shout/slap me awake to reality.... i said "yeah, let's do this"

i said that to his suggestion : let's prank Ralph and everyone else.
lets say we're a couple.

i really like him. dangit. deep shyt i've dug myself into.
but i was blinded by the unbiased hatred i had for Ralph. and the fact that i really do like this guy... :/


:/ right now i'm having a hard time deciding what he does/say is real/fake. sometimes i'd smile my genuinely-giddy-with-glee smile when he says something sweet or awwww-worthy.  

but then when the lil voice in my head 
reminds me of reality, i cant help but just give a 'blah...so wasted!' 

skin tones differ?

 dated an english-educated chinese for too long. 

kinda regretting it. so yeah, if YOU are reading this (the english educated chinese tht dated me back then), i'll let you know that you were being unfair and mean! its called playful flirting and i've NVR cheated. you did. i just refused to be a gossip monger and tell the  whole church on u. which u obviously enjoyed doing. or maybe it was ur sis. i dunno. i dun care.

   dated a dreamy Johorian malay for a lil while.

he was sooooooo easy going. its the type of relationship reserved only in boring english movies. where couples would sit down, hv tea, chit chat then hv a walk. he's not much of a talker or a looker but gawd, i thank God everyday he's my dance partner in Akedemi Sri Ledang (the Glee of Kem NS Sri Ledang, Johor! we were AWESHUM!!!) sucha gentle soft spoken guy whose family were so divine in accepting me as anak-angkat :')  imissyoulabuddy!

but i don't think it wud be wise to suddenly hv a crush on a guy at least three tones darker than myself. 

im no racist. i hv best friends who aren't chinese. heck! i grew up in KL lah~ high skewl was filled wif them indians and malays. i had an indian bestie for a while... cuz she moved away to shah alam. :( then i lost her number back in form 2. sigh. i still hv my malay close frens too! hehe! but anyway, the point is... i dun think its as simple as a crush. stupid of me, yes. crazy of me, hell yeah. 

flings = not charlotte. 

i swear, if i had to. i wudnt go on with this crush. met him thru... i think i shud blardy dedicate this blog to Alvin. he seems to get me into trouble all the time. i met this guy thru Alvin. seen him hang out wif Alvin alot around JP smoking shisha. dunno why he hangs around indians. IM NOT RACIST. ;p just worried he might be hanging out wif the wrong crowd. but im not his momma. i hv this soft spot for anyone from my KK primary skewl days. he's a in rough patch for a while. i dun care wad others say of him, as long he's honest and looks out for me, im doin the same. so shoot me, if he doesn't.

me? work? like, seriously?

oh come on. i've worked hard for my moolah! ;p 

i know i look like the pampered princess. hehehe... but nah. i dun like being it.

weird, kan? 

AND I'VE DONE THE UNTHINKABLE!!!

hello PCfair! :D

yesh! charlotte at your service!

i am the promoter/cashier!

much thanks to Alvin, my long lost primary one crush and now best fren!

he's the supervisor of the store so i went for the interview and got hired. i assume there were string pulled cuz i noe nuthin of the tech world. hehe!

i had one of the best times of my life learning new stuff and meeting a gazillion strangers! yeah, im abit of a kepochi and cannot stop talking even if my life depended on it. no wait, i wud but i'd try to talk myself out of it? not making sense here. hmmm.. *ponders*

meet the IT family! :) btw i kinda had a major disagreement wif my cashier partner? when i was about to lose my temper to scream at her, darling Leo - a good fren of Alvin, helped me whip her foul mouth :D cant stop smiling at the memories cuz she cried! tsk tsk. evil evil meh~ 

meiyee and i fooling around on preparation day! :) miss her! 

gurls just LOVE sales! thats Andy in blue jeans and Leo! 

Hong and Andy clearing up after 3 days of absolute chaos. fun!

oh, u durtay lil thang!

dance dance dance! drink and a lil camwhoring, please! 

a lil! i swear! ;p

 been getting into the habit of havin a bit of late-night fun. cuz my fav gurlie in the whole wide world, Cassie is back~! woots! been spending almost all my time wif her whenever possible. obviously, mommy wasn't too happy about it. but back to the happy part! she being the first to introduce to shisha, well, brought me out for more shisha! hahaha! i've graduated in the art of shisha-ing without coughing and without getting high. oddly, i do get high on shisha. like one wud go high after drinking a crate of beer or a bottle of chivas. cass can testify to that! LOL... having me smoke for 25minutes straight then go have fun at Edgar's pub. buduh... cant even walk straight. ROFL.

the new club - Emperor cud be given a rating of ...hmmm... 4 outta 10. the female Dj was pretty good, but boo to the service and crowd. our groupies took the VIP seatings which was elevated from the rest. so those with mini skirts, ;p  glad ur making the other men happeh! 

sprinkles of the past

i've surprised myself again. with friends la, i mean. finally being able to hang out with decade old frens :) 

seeing them all grown up, some studying, others working. still amazes me everytime. how far we've come from lil kids in primary school uniforms, with the biggest worries of whether our homework were completed or not. and we can still remember the lil thing we'd do with each other, what we said and what our parents would say to the other. gawd. some blardy embarrassing stories came out, but i've forgotten some tho. so we'd all be screaming and laughing most of the time. hmm... indeed, how far along we've come. 

 an old soul, i am. old soul and a romantic. i cant possibly survive this cold and cruel world. just barely alive from my last break-up, which is also my first and only serious relationship thus far. the others after that, well, i guess there was no harm trying out a relationship with them . but i always did emphasize that i'm not in this for the long run. yes, i did state one condition : we're a couple but it ain't gonna last long. 

i'm no cold hearted bitch. i can be, but only when forced with a sprinkle of hate/anger. 

if ever i do find the right guy for a long term and serious relationship, i'd do lil things to make him happy. holding hands and giving him kisses or hugs. buying him prezzies that i think he might like, and cook food for him! LOL heck, the way to a man's heart is often food. tried and tested. im blardy qualified. unless he had better, then poor me. hehehe. 

but no. there is no man for a complicated gurlie like me. considering turning lesbo. cuz gawd, i've met gurls who'd be perfect boyfrens if only they were guys. blek!

to do list after exams! rawr!

now i know the meaning of being : TOO FREE. 

exams are on the way. i should be studying every damn minute of every damn day. but gawd, im no nerd-material. much to my misfortune. LOL. i'd love to be a nerdy good gurl. 

but gah, i'd rather really live life, apart from the norm. i'd be crazy not to! seriously, do i look like the type that would just sit there study? then take a nap, and continue reading? i can, but only in small doses. but i can do practicals like an obsessed workaholic. eg: college and family events. oh yeah~~~

my to do list!!!

study for exams. 

sit for exams ;p

then have a week of absolute sleep in

go all out shopping and clubbing for the next! 

the finale : imma go work wif my daddy! 

the last part was a bit of a downer but still, excited. this time, imma just work for him. not for mommy! >:P

and there you go... lifeless!

oh the sanity. 

quite frankly, life is too mundane. so much like clock-work. i've come to realise that i get bored too easily. with anything. except money. or God. or family.

wait. so that leaves me with .... my daily life?

wake up. breathe. sleep. shyt. eat. housechores. work. facebook. nap. yimcha. sleep again. there u go.

i think that is pretty much it. lifeless. i know. :/  sad kan?

entertain me lovely people! :)