end of the road?

its almost like clockwork now.

wakeup. smile to see text messages. wait for morning call. wash up and get changed. work. brunch wif boyfriend. watch movie. shisha/dinner with boyfriend. chill at his place. go out with close bunch of friends till midnight. hang out a lil while more at his place. sleep. repeat process. 

that's the life of a grape planter, peeps.

but i hold his hand more often now. sometimes i try to hold on more tightly. or even walk abit closer. when i do dare to, i'd hug him or kiss him. i'd stare at his face a bit longer than normal. talk to him abit more about things between us. there's just so lil time left till he leaves. i hate it. i really do hate due dates. in fact, i hate expiry dates.

if i cud, i'd pack him in a pokeball. 

and no, i dun watch pokemon but i hv cousins who love 'em.

facing the big screens

i have never watched soooo many movies in a month!

 

like seriously, i used to only watch movies once or twice a month. 

yes, in ONE month.haha! 

not that i do not enjoy movies, if the movie is really good, then i wud be smiling and all but if it sucks, i guess i've not only wasted the ka-chings but also 2 hours of my life. 

but gawd, 3D movies are reli a waste of time. especially if its in KK. le sigh.

but im glad during gud or sucky movies, he's wif me. 

patriotic about racism? =.=''

My point of view:  it's the OLDER generation that have this problem -----> racism. 

W-H-Y?

it was already drilled into their mind to be proud of your own race : "we're chinese! / we're malay! Better than u! ...etc" You get the drift. The older generation, let's be MORE specific, such as the babies born in the late 50's until early 80's.

i shyt u not! think about it!
how old is Nik Aziz? and what about Haji Badruddin?
i dun reli have to use this two as the example, but sadly, they seem to be the most famous political leaders for their racist/sexist comments :/


its not our generation that has a problem with racism.
(late 80's babies UNITE!)

not that we are absolutely racism-free but i think without the brainwashing or influence from the older generation, we might stand a chance of a racism-almost-free nation. a chance to prosper, no? :)

cassette on replay!!!

i just found my box of old cassettes! 

as in those rectangular plastic thingy containing thin film which u put in a radio to play music and they even print stickers to label the band name on it kinda cassettes!

i'm sorry. 

i was afraid the younger generation who never had the fun of knowing what is a cassette.

nor will they ever know how fun it is to screw up sumone else's cassette simply by pulling out the film  >:D

i did that to Mandy's Matchbox 20 cassette.

cuz she cudn't stop playing it for hours everyday. it was torture cuz i cant have anything too monotonous in my life. i get bored faaaar too easily. i think its a disorder! hehehe! 

my fav cassette?

dun laugh ok? 

*drum roll please* 

you ready?

it's my..... 1.) Disney Princess Collection!!!

  2.) Whitney Houston 

and 3.) Celine Dion!

of ALL humans to annoy me...

been hanging out alot lately with 2 small bunch of frens. 

group #1 : alvin raj roy ralph andrea panda ,
group #2 : wilson kenny louis cass 

not too close but just orite.
got irritated alot by a Philippino boy. i feel like im being used and different style of stalking.
he texts, he calls and he even walks to my house. apparently he lives quite close by! 

arghhhh! 

and ... the worst part is... my dog likes him =.=''
damn the dog.  

then a few times i do notice myself having a minor crush on him. come to think about it, eeeyuck! emphasizing on the word MINOR and the word CRUSH. 

definition of crush is you LIKE that person cuz u find that person interesting

definition of minor is that it is of a small amount, insignificant! 

so don't you dare go around with assumptions tht i like this guy big time, or i cant forget him, or i'd like to hv a relationship with him. it'd be crazy. i still haven't....no wait, i will not forget that he scratched my beloved Mercedez with his thumbnail. yeah... fantastic.

"just polish your car, the scratch will go off!"

just for your information, arsehole! the scratch is still there even after PRO car wash sessions! 

piss me off one more time, and i'm going after him to pay up!

and the worst one to date : he effing took my cash outta my wallet. 

no friend of mine does that! 

toprank -OR-bepranked ?

i must be pranking MYSELF. 

or i cud be just plain stupid.

i kinda knew from the start that it was a bad idea to even start liking him. like seriously, to even consider a relationship with him is exactly like asking my dad to think of becoming a world renown rockstar. He might just give me the do-u-think-i-m-stupid look and carry on with watever he was previously doing. 

now, i've done the one thing i told myself to not do. 

prepare to scream/shout/slap me awake to reality.... i said "yeah, let's do this"

i said that to his suggestion : let's prank Ralph and everyone else.
lets say we're a couple.

i really like him. dangit. deep shyt i've dug myself into.
but i was blinded by the unbiased hatred i had for Ralph. and the fact that i really do like this guy... :/


:/ right now i'm having a hard time deciding what he does/say is real/fake. sometimes i'd smile my genuinely-giddy-with-glee smile when he says something sweet or awwww-worthy.  

but then when the lil voice in my head 
reminds me of reality, i cant help but just give a 'blah...so wasted!' 

skin tones differ?

 dated an english-educated chinese for too long. 

kinda regretting it. so yeah, if YOU are reading this (the english educated chinese tht dated me back then), i'll let you know that you were being unfair and mean! its called playful flirting and i've NVR cheated. you did. i just refused to be a gossip monger and tell the  whole church on u. which u obviously enjoyed doing. or maybe it was ur sis. i dunno. i dun care.

   dated a dreamy Johorian malay for a lil while.

he was sooooooo easy going. its the type of relationship reserved only in boring english movies. where couples would sit down, hv tea, chit chat then hv a walk. he's not much of a talker or a looker but gawd, i thank God everyday he's my dance partner in Akedemi Sri Ledang (the Glee of Kem NS Sri Ledang, Johor! we were AWESHUM!!!) sucha gentle soft spoken guy whose family were so divine in accepting me as anak-angkat :')  imissyoulabuddy!

but i don't think it wud be wise to suddenly hv a crush on a guy at least three tones darker than myself. 

im no racist. i hv best friends who aren't chinese. heck! i grew up in KL lah~ high skewl was filled wif them indians and malays. i had an indian bestie for a while... cuz she moved away to shah alam. :( then i lost her number back in form 2. sigh. i still hv my malay close frens too! hehe! but anyway, the point is... i dun think its as simple as a crush. stupid of me, yes. crazy of me, hell yeah. 

flings = not charlotte. 

i swear, if i had to. i wudnt go on with this crush. met him thru... i think i shud blardy dedicate this blog to Alvin. he seems to get me into trouble all the time. i met this guy thru Alvin. seen him hang out wif Alvin alot around JP smoking shisha. dunno why he hangs around indians. IM NOT RACIST. ;p just worried he might be hanging out wif the wrong crowd. but im not his momma. i hv this soft spot for anyone from my KK primary skewl days. he's a in rough patch for a while. i dun care wad others say of him, as long he's honest and looks out for me, im doin the same. so shoot me, if he doesn't.