please makes me smile once more...

we talked it over and...
altho it was a lil of bashful confessions and lotsa laughs. 

but underneath it all, i know that i've had enuff of this relationship.

there is just no way of turning this around anymore. i've tried.

like a contaminated bottle of juice... there is just no way of changing it back to fresh juice!

haha! sounds funny but yeah, thats how i pictured it in my mind.
not unless ur the juice and i have the enzymes to de-bacteria the juice. 

its not easy :(

i'll just have to gather whatever courage is left in my previously cold heart.

*yanks hair out*

i.cannot.not.lose.my.temper.today.

i'm seriously trying to be so effing patient and understanding.

there is just no way
that i would explode in my boyfren's face.
or rather, into my darling handphone to my bf's ears.

there is also no way
am i going to go and tattle tale to my dad
even tho he's deemed my bestest best fwen in the world.
who has heard me complain/muse abt nearly everything i cud think of.

for the first time in my life,

i'm actually annoyed at picking up the phone.

like, i was reluctant to see who the caller was.

i'm evil. i know.
i swear i was not always like this.
unless i was back in KL, where being bitchy is cool when you're a tiny teen. some might agree that KL-ites are often quite bitchy. O,O